I’ve been quieter than usual. Mercury and Neptune retrograde have brought me back to unhealed beliefs, past relationships, memories of childhood and appreciation for family and friends. I’ve been deep diving into my own rest, my own dreams and excavating more truths. I’ve cried more than usual for what has been left unsaid, for the potential of sharing ourselves with vulnerability and strength even in the face of perceived loss.

The truth is that we are eternal, if we choose to accept that we are energy/Spirit/Cosmic matter…we are connected and one with all, even in the matter of matter itself.

The more individualized we become the more difference, separation and “uniqueness” we create. We are both eternal, all-knowing AND temporal beings struggling for meaning. We are meaning making entities. As personalities we are trained to wait to be “chosen/selected.” We wait around to be “chosen” by the right school, job, man/woman and opportunity.

The fact is, the truth is…WE CHOOSE.

WE choose on so many levels. Superconscious ( meta level as so many call it now), subconscious and conscious. We chose our meanings. WE choose how to love. As long as we hand over our power to others or the belief that something outside will make us HAPPY/SAFE/SECURE/FULFILLED we will always feel something amiss. Everything that is real, fulfilling and enriching truly emanates from our own perception/acceptance/awareness and alignment.

SO take a moment from your sadness, your loss, your confusion, your fears and ego trying to find something to hold on to or something to protect that which you cannot protect.

When we block love from our lives and experience we are not protecting from further loss…we are excavating into deeper loneliness and chaos. Allow love to flood your heart.

The water was freezing yesterday am. I went in there anyway, kinda yelping than laughing, giggling. Once in the sandbar dropped dramatically and I huge wave came. I fell into the waves, and turned around and popped up. I came up laughing. I used to do this all the time as a child. I was 4, 5, 6 years old running to the waves, my parents sometimes running after me. I would feel my way in and then jump in..i couldn’t swim but I never doubted I would be fine. That’s how I deeply, truly feel about life and love. I may lose my footing, I may get scrapped by the sand but the Universe and Yemaya ( Great Mother of the Seas) have my back. I am ALWAYS restored and usually, made better than before…

I have never been a good bystander. I can’t stand by the river and watch the fun. In love, business, arts and sensuality…I must dive in. I must flow, ride the waves and breathe deeply. I may be scratched up from the sand. I may not swim like I dreamt about but I seek to live, I seek to fully experience what it means to be an unsouled and embodied human. After all, isn’t that what Earth School is about?

Where are you ready to release from the past and DIVE IN TO YOUR NOW?

you, V

© Vanessa Codorniu, CHt, RMT, Urban Priestess 2014