The need for freedom and self-expression have always made me a free spirit.
As a child, I drew, painted, danced, sang and wrote stories and songs. My freedom of expression in these mediums made my childhood a vast exploratory kingdom and I reveled in this inner world I could create and re-create in different ways. One of my favorite pastimes was drawing the goddesses of world mythology and other intergalactic worlds.
I drew however I wanted. Pencil, crayons. fingers, collage…what have you. I applied to Music and Art HS & Art & Design for my HS education and got in. My parents didn’t want me to travel from Queens to NYC at 12/13. I made them promise if I got in the next year, I would be allowed to go. I did and they kept their promise.
Immediately, I was told that I had to hold the pencil or charcoal a certain way. I was made to do still life when up till then I basically drew “imaginary life.” I was taught how to “see” and I started to dread drawing and creating in this way.
My inner FREE SPIRIT was like ‘OHHH NOOOO!!!!”
When I asked,” I got into the school doing what I do, why is it wrong?” My awesome teacher said that it wasn’t wrong at all and that I was being taught “classical” techniques so I could have a wealth of tools in my creative toolbox.
Ahhhh…i got it!
Art lost it’s allure over time as I entered college and go involved with theatre, debate, the newspaper and various media clubs. The truth of what my teacher explained stayed with me though out my life.
I apply this to all of the work I do now. Structure is important because without it, we enter the inner worlds, float around and come out all starry-eyed and ecstatic and have no words…and that might be the point-for awhile. If you are destined to be a teacher, guide or sharer of a path…you will need to share in an organized way. Structure is a way of organizing information that without form may seem too overwhelming. It may be so overwhelming that it may not be able to have a longer life than that of “experience.” That works too but if you wan tho teach and support others, being able to share a training or a way of doing something- you will need a vehicle to offer it in an understandable way.
For years I did lots of inner world exploration without the proper training or “structure” like perform my first past life regression at 18 without training or do hands on healing or trance exploring. I came back out knowing I had seen and heard many things and essentially having no framework for it. It was all great but I wasn’t satisfied. I wanted to be able to replicate my results and to help others undergo this process or experience and reap their own benefits and expansion.
I studied clinical hypnotherapy, energy medicine, shamanism and tons of other things with time. These structures gave me a foundation from which to leap from.
Today my client shared her training with a shaman and the challenges she was having. I guided her through a shamanic journey and she was able to get the answers she had been desperately wanting.
As she returned I shared with her,” Study the structures, the rules of various modalities and paths AND keep those of ethics and spiritual protection,etc. KNOW also that the closer you get to mastery…the more you can trust your inner guidance and allow your SOul to explain PAST the structures and guide you through the unknown.”
I offer my work and courses and there is a basic structure to exercises…AND there is room for the spontaneous and the inspired.
My life and the space I hold is solid and experienced to allow my students and clients to prepare to take the leap. If you trust your inner power and the grounded centered core of your being, the more likely you are to SOAR as we get close to the cliff and you jump!
Don’t be afraid of structure. Structure can serve your Soul as long as you do not let your mind lock you in to how things “should be.” If it’s making you a perfectionist, you are missing the point.
Structure organizes the information; it is NOT the information…at least in my world.
Remember that many artists learned classical styles, then allowed their spirits to soar and created a style all their own. You don’t have to live in the nest of safety but you can return after a long flight!
Remember that Yoda did his own thing though he trained and trained. So learn the foundation, the history and the whats and hows and then JUMP & SOAR!
It’s the way to inspire change and to embody MORE of your own SOUL
loving you, V
THE DAILY ORACLE 2014